Monday, December 17, 2007

Depressed (again)

I'm really not having a good day. Yesterday JP got up on the wrong side of the bed. It lasted ALL DAY! Sat night was family movie night as the kids had had a good day with Hubby (since Emilee was gone 3 hrs to a friend's house - she didn't have much time to get into trouble) and it was so cold we didn't want to go see the HOliday Train in town. It was almost 9pm before they got to bed. From the way yesterday went...family movie night will NOT happen again or at least not to the point where they stay up late...it will start at 5pm so they get to bed on time.

Hubby's brother brought Em's homework from Friday down yesterday morning. (Why he didn't call sooner so we could have went and got it from him I have no clue...but that's a whole different post). So up to the table we went...Emilee with 6 pages of Language Arts & Math to do...JP with 3 pages of homework from being gone on Thursday. With an interruption for lunch and naptime (that was VERY MUCH NEEDED) we got homework done 5 hours later.

I just feel so crappy. Life is not fun. Being a parent is not fun (and i know even with "normal" kids parenting isn't always fun) but I VERY RARELY feel happy anymore. The kids' behaviors get to me right away. I try my hardest to remain calm and usually I do - they just end up sent to their rooms which aggravates them even more. The yelling/screaming/spitting/throwing things is getting out of control. Plus JP's behaviors continue to get worse and it's exactly what he is learning from his sister. I know that's normal to a point but this is extreme. He's now taken to spitting on me.(hmmm his sister did this how many times in the past?).

We are leaving Friday afternoon to celebrate Christmas with my family 2 1/2 hrs away for the weekend. Then we are coming home Sunday and I have MOn/Tues off from work...and guess what??? I'm NOT looking forward to spending 4 days home with my kids!!! How sad is that????

(Yep...therapy is #1 on my New Year's Resolutions!)

5 comments:

Yondalla said...

((HUG))

Yes, kids who have not been traumatized can be not fun also. I seem to remember calling my mother and thanking her for not killing me when I was a two. (Brian was a tough two year old).

But dealing with traumatized kids who are afraid of attaching is worse. Much worse. Sibling groups, even groups of two, can make it even harder.

Take care of yourself.

Do things like "time ins" work? I've never tried them, but I have heard people who have kids with attachment issues use them. You know, where a kid is not allowed to be further then 3 feet or so from you?

Tudu said...

Just followed you over here and so sad to seeing you having such a hard time with your kids. I know the dread of watching another child pick up the lovely habits of another well behaved child (dripping with sarcasm). I hope your trip goes well, I can't wait to read up on your blog.

Amanda said...

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I wish I had some great words of wisdom, but I don't. As Yondalla said, please try to take care of yourself and enjoy the holidays.

Trace said...

I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy. The holidays suck. I remember when I used to love them (sigh).

Julie said...

Hang in there- I hope you find a good therapist that you can vent all this to and get some guidance. It is tough with older ones- with all the damage that has been done prior to you knowing them- that is the part I hate about all this- so much out of control! I am praying for you! Hugs!!!