Thursday, June 28, 2007

How much more...

do i have to try and deal with this week. I'll warn you this is going to be a "pity party for me" post so read at your own risk!

So where do I begin? Monday was a hard day. My mom took the news of her cousin passing away pretty hard. He was only 57. I am proud to say that he was an organ donor though and because of him, someone else is living! Thank you Cousin F.

On Tuesday I got a call for a respite placement for 2 kids. Let's see, I will call them "Alyssa" and "Brady". They are 28 months old and 16 months old. We will have them until July 9. So now that puts us at 6 1/2, 4 3/4, 2 1/2 and 1 1/2. WOW! I am crazy! Actually, the kids are really good. Their current foster family is going on vacation and will have 18 kids under the age of 9 when all their grandkids get here so they thought it would be best if they didn't have these 2 on top of things. I can't blame them. This foster family is the family that took our L&L for 2 months while I had surgery last fall so how could I tell her no? Plus "Emilee" and "JP" are so excited to have "babies" in thehouse with us. Hopefully I am still sane on July 9! :-)

Yesterday was the funeral for Cousin F. It was VERY hard. I just kept seeing one of my parents in that casket! Wow how life can change in the blink of an eye! Also yesterday, my mom got her reports from the stress test that she had done on this past Monday. Not good news. We are waiting to hear from the doc this afternoon as to an appt with a heart specialist for an angiogram/angioplasty. I'm sooooo scared! On the day we bury her cousin who is 2 years older than her who died from a heart attack, we get news that my mom's heart is not good. UGH! I dont' know if I can take this! We've known for a while that she had some issues but the last tests have all been ok. Now we wait and see! This is the hardest part. Part of me wishing I wouldn't have accepted this respite placement now so I could have more freedom to help her out but I guess we'll make due.

On top of all this, my hubby (whom I love dearly) is having his own issues with his mother's upcoming wedding and taking it out on me. I know it's just a matter of time, but I really don't need his attitude right now. I have enough on my plate. This is why I don't mind that we see his mother 2 times per year IF we are lucky. He always gets this way. He goes back to sulking because his parents are divorced and his mom cheated on his dad so every move I make he questions. I have NEVER given him a reason to question me but it's how he is after she's been around. In a few days things will be back to normal.

Well now my sister called and we discussed my mom's situation. After she got done telling me how worried she is about my mom and dad, she says, "And yeah, they are going to have my kids for a week in July!" HELLO!!! Are you stupid. Our mother has heart problems. She can in no way handle your 3 yr old and 8 month old for 8 days in July! I told her that and now she's mad at me. She said she has NO OTHER OPTION. Ummm, my brother lives in the same town as she does but they are not getting along right now so that is out. I wish I could take her kids. That just may be what i have to do. She may have to pay daycare and me have her kids. We'll see what happens.

Enough for now. I need to get this posted. I've been working on it off and on for over 4 hours now.


destiny said...

Hi there
My dad had the same dx from a stress test, said he was 70% blocked and had to have a angiogram, that turned into a angioplasty, with 3 stents being put in his arteries. It turned out it was 90% blocked and the doctors said the only thing that saved him was that he didnt over extend/work/push himself. Any way he said the angioplasty was like a trip to Hawaii compared to the stress test and would do it again no problem. He had this done saturday and the recovery is 2 weeks with no lifting or physical activity.
Hope all goes well

Dream Mommy said...

I'm in the crazy club too. I may have a 3rd baby under two in a couple months.