Tuesday, March 18, 2008

An Eye Opener

Well last night went well with A. I'm not sure yet if he'll be back for another night or not. Don't really care either way. Although he chatters nonstop, it wasn't too bad considering we didn't get home until 6:30pm and they were all in bed at 7:30pm.

Then I got a call from my "mentor" for foster care. Just checking in. She is like a mom to me. She's just wonderful! Let's call her Jean. Anyways, Jean told me that there are currently 4 kids in care in our county whose mom's don't want them back! How could you not want your kids back???? I guess Emilee and JP's mom did the same thing so why am I surprised? It is 2 groups of 2. The one group happens to be the 2 little ones that I had for 5 days last November when Emilee was just coming home from the hospital. There's something going on with them that one of the dad's wants one and the other one's dad on the birth certificate isn't really dad and so they are searching for real dad. Hmmmm...I did make it known this am that I would take both or either one of them back in a heartbeat. The home they are in has given a one month notice on the kids. Afterall, they have 4 under the age of 3 with these 2 there and it was only supposed to be short term and it's been 4 months already. I don't blame her for being worn out and knowing her limits. I've been in her place before hating to ask to have kids' moved but knowing it's more than I could handle. We'll see what happens with them. I'm not getting excited but who knows...maybe things happen for a reason.

This finally brings me up to the "Eye Opener". If I want to bring 2 more kids' into my home on a longer term basis (and possibly forever), I need to be healthy. I go back to the doc on thursday and am going to discuss partial hospitalization treatment. I would like to do a "day treatment" program if there is one. I really think I could benefit from some group therapy. I can talk until I'm blue in the face with my friends/family and it's great but I think being able to talk to other people who are dealing with my struggles right now would help me out too. We'll see what the doc has to say.

I'm off to my meeting with my boss...wish me luck!


Amanda said...

I so, so, so hope the conversation goes well.

Can't wait to hear about the other two potential kids :-)

Mary said...

Luck -- and tons of it!

Kathy said...

Here's wishing you luck!

I'm also hoping that all will go well with your treatment so that you can get the support you need, feel better, and have the children placed in your home soon. You are an awesome woman, and I'm wishing you the best!

Julie said...

I really really really hope the conversation went well and that that an option for you- you are right- it is very important that you are healthy- it is exciting to think of 4 at home- whew! I can't imagine- :) But excited that you are excited about taking that on- they need some love and it sounds like you have it to give. :)