Thursday, February 21, 2008


Well today I had my 2nd appts at the Eating Disorder Institute. I took my mom with me. Not sure if that was a good idea or not. They encouraged me to bring family/friend support so I did that. Mom listened to what they had to say and then on the way back to work here's what took place..

Me: I didn't mean to make you cry up there.

Mom: I know. I'm just worried about you.

Me: I'll be fine. I am taking the steps needed to get better. It's tough. I'm scared. But I know what needs to be done and I'm willing to work on it.

Mom: Well I know your issues aren't due to you thinking you are fat...they are stress related.

Me: Umm yeah you're right.

Didn't she listen to ANYTHING I had to say at the appt? Didn't she listen to ANYTHING the doc had to say??? UGH! I wasn't going to get into it with her then. I took her with. I won't do it again.

On a separate note, I went back to my MD today (yes I spent 3 1/2 hrs in clinics today and still managed to work 9 hrs) and he doubled my depression meds. The last week has been VERY difficult. I'm not sure what is going on. I'm back to feeling how I did on no meds and I HATE FEELING THIS WAY!!!


Mary said...

UGH! What a day!

Your body does "adjust" to meds at times, so it's not surprising that the dosage has to change. Any time I feel "off" for more than a week, I let my doc know too.

And hang in there with the eating. While it was probably good you brought your mom, she probably has more of a feeling of wanting to "fix" things and is frustrated she can't.

Kathy said...

I'm sorry that things didn't go well with your mom being at your appointment and afterwards too. I agree with Mary that she probably has feelings of wanting to fix things.

As for the depression meds...I also had to have my dose increased with the Prozac last week. I was feeling worse than before the meds too. I was told by my doctor, and by a friend, that your body will feel better when the meds start getting into your system, but then if the dose isn't high enough (and your body needs more) then you will feel crummy...and you'll need to have the dose increased.

I've started feeling better already, after over a week of taking the increased dose...but with any extra stress, I seem to feel crummy still. I'm hoping that after three or four weeks on the new dose, I'll start to really feel the difference.

Hang in there. I hope that your meds will start working better with the increase, and I hope that all will go well with treating your eating disorder.

Amanda said...

Ick. Sorry that the support she was trying to provide wasn't what you needed. I suspect she wants this to be situational, which might be why she attributed it to stress... In any event, it's good that you are getting the help you need. Hope they get the meds worked out soon.