An Eye Opener

Well last night went well with A. I'm not sure yet if he'll be back for another night or not. Don't really care either way. Although he chatters nonstop, it wasn't too bad considering we didn't get home until 6:30pm and they were all in bed at 7:30pm.

Then I got a call from my "mentor" for foster care. Just checking in. She is like a mom to me. She's just wonderful! Let's call her Jean. Anyways, Jean told me that there are currently 4 kids in care in our county whose mom's don't want them back! How could you not want your kids back???? I guess Emilee and JP's mom did the same thing so why am I surprised? It is 2 groups of 2. The one group happens to be the 2 little ones that I had for 5 days last November when Emilee was just coming home from the hospital. There's something going on with them that one of the dad's wants one and the other one's dad on the birth certificate isn't really dad and so they are searching for real dad. Hmmmm...I did make it known this am that I would take both or either one of them back in a heartbeat. The home they are in has given a one month notice on the kids. Afterall, they have 4 under the age of 3 with these 2 there and it was only supposed to be short term and it's been 4 months already. I don't blame her for being worn out and knowing her limits. I've been in her place before hating to ask to have kids' moved but knowing it's more than I could handle. We'll see what happens with them. I'm not getting excited but who knows...maybe things happen for a reason.

This finally brings me up to the "Eye Opener". If I want to bring 2 more kids' into my home on a longer term basis (and possibly forever), I need to be healthy. I go back to the doc on thursday and am going to discuss partial hospitalization treatment. I would like to do a "day treatment" program if there is one. I really think I could benefit from some group therapy. I can talk until I'm blue in the face with my friends/family and it's great but I think being able to talk to other people who are dealing with my struggles right now would help me out too. We'll see what the doc has to say.

I'm off to my meeting with my boss...wish me luck!

A New Placement

Yep, just what I need. Here's the original post from the first time he was with us. Yep you heard it right...this will be our 2nd placement with him. They tell me it's a 1 night stay. Do I believe them...NO but we'll see what happens tomorrow. He drove me absolutely NUTS last time but I still found I couldn't say no. Afterall, he's got issues and to put him in a different home when he already knows us and supposedly it's only for 1 night...how could I not say he could come??? Anyways we'll see how the night goes.

I called Hubby to let him know...

Me: We're gonna get another kid for the night.

Hubby: Who?

Me: A

Hubby: Why???

ME: Cause they tell me it's only for 1 night.

Hubby: Ok fine.

If it turns into more than 1 night, I'll have to come up with a name for him. We'll see.

A clarification

Some have asked about the new blog title. No we have not finalized yet. I'm unsure WHEN we will. Notice I didn't say IF. Emilee and JP have been with us for 9 months. Yes they have some MAJOR issues BUT I could never have them moved. They are MY kids. THey have no other parents. I can only imagine what moving them again would do to them. We are FINALLY going down the right path so we'll see how it goes for the next few months. Maybe for Christmas this year I will be a FOREVER mommy??? We'll have to see.

I'm Still Alive

I'm still alive. We have a "SUPER SALE" at work this week and I've put in about 40 hrs and it's only 11am on Thursday. (Can you figure out why I haven't blogged???)

Had a doc appt this am. Not good news. 2 choices....cut back to 20 hrs/week max work and treatment 2 days/week or be hospitalized. My choice. Hmmmm...I NEED to talk to my boss. The other choice does not fit good with me.

I'll update more later. HOpe all is well with everyone.

Happy Birthday Grandpa

Grandpa Phil,

Hi. First of all I want to wish you a HAPPY 83rd Birthday TODAY!!!

How are you doing? I'm sure you're laughing at all of us who are dealing with this COLD weather. I really miss you grandpa! There's so much that I didn't get to say to you.

I remember how upset you were when we made you go get your wrist checked out that Friday. You teased me because my wrist also was hurting me at the time. We made a good pair. They wanted to do surgery on your wrist. Mom told them NO WAY! Afterall, you were 80 years old and you didn't want it so she decided that she was going to do what you wanted and just let it heal as it may. (Boy am I glad she made that decision when she did). I wasn't as lucky. I had 2 surgery's on my wrist within 2 months of eachother that summer/fall but I guess you do know that as I know you were there with me both times.

I'm sorry we didn't make it to the home on Easter Sunday to visit you. I remember that Gabby wasn't feeling good and I remember telling Grandma to just give you a hug when she got there and tell you we'd be there to visit the following weekend.

Then Tuesday morning at 5:15am, the phone rang. It was mom and she was crying. I knew right away something was wrong. She said, "Jo, Grandpa's gone". And I said, "grandpa Klint?" and she said "No, Grandpa Phil". I remember crying immediatly and Hubby asking me what's wrong. I kept saying, "No, No, NO. How? Why?" Then Hubby took the phone and talked to mom. Gabby and I got up and came to the farm to be with mom and grandma and dad. I couldn't go to work. IT was the LONGEST 40 miles of my life. Gabby and I spent the night with grandma and came back to town the next day.

Then we headed back to the farm for the rest of the week. Friday was a tough day for everyone. The funeral was very nice though and Orv did a GREAT job singing. There was SOOOOO MANY Flowers! You really were a well liked person, Grandpa. So many stories about you driving bus for the school and you driving the gas truck. I enjoyed listening to all of them.

I hope you are celebrating with a huge cake and lots of gifts today. I took flowers out and came to visit you last weekend. It was cold and the roads were icy but I'm glad I made the trip. Enjoy your special day Grandpa!

I Love You and Miss You!

"Old Mean Jo"

Yep Baby

So my bff had a baby girl last night about 8:50pm. I'm so happy for her and her hubby. What an awesome experience to be a part of.
I couldn't ask for a better bff!

Maybe Baby???

Well I'm at the hospital today with my bff who is letting me be here for the birth of their baby. We've been here all day. We are making progress...SLOW but still progress. Unsure if we'll have a baby today or not but I'm sure excited for bff and her hubby.

I played hooky from work today too! :-) I'm so naughty but oh well. I'm thinking this day has also given me a much needed break from "the grind" and to just do something for myself for a change. Hubby was like "You've been there ALL DAY and you're staying LONGER?" and i was like "Yep. I'll drop a car seat off for JP at daycare and you can pick him up on your way home. Don't wait for me for supper". He didn't sound too impressed...but he'll get over it.

Hope everyone had a nice weekend.