Foster Care Update

HOLY COW...things are actually moving ahead....I have my first meeting with the social worker on Monday, Nov 22.  Don't have all of my "corrections" done but close and she said we could start the home visits while the rest is "corrected".  I'm nervous and excited at the same time.  I've got a lot of things I want to get done around my house before that meeting just to be sure things look perfect. (i.e. more painting, decorating, organizing)

I will have to relive all the horrors of my foster care experience in ND...(heck just thought...maybe I need to change my name as I'm not "ndfostermom" anymore since I live in a new state....oh well.)  I'm am really hoping that my new county is more helpful with placements and assistance that the child may need.  If I find out they are like my old county...I  think I'll just throw in the towel right away...I'm not up for dealing with all that BS again.

Work is FINALLY slowing down with harvest completed for the most part.  It's nice to begin to have a life again outside of my job. 

I even joined a Women's Recreation Volleyball League and am LOVING getting out once a week.  I never played volleyball (other than in gym class in school) but it's a lot of fun.  Good way for me to meet new people and make new friends.

RIP Grandma Ruth

Ok...so I've been non-existent again and I'm sorry.  This past week has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me.  On Wed morning I received a call from my mom that my dad's mom had been found on the floor of her apartment and was being taken to the ER by ambulance.  My parents were 3+ hours away as my dad was having some cardiac testing of his own done.  I am the closest family member to where Grandma lived so I took off from work and went to the hospital.  I'm so thankful I was able to be there with her on Wed.  Although, there were obvious issues going on in her brain (she was in and out of being "with-it") she still knew who I was and we were able to have somewhat of a "normal" conversation at times.    Long story short...by Thursday morning all 5 of the boys (my dad and his 4 brothers) were able to get to the hospital and see her and visit with her.  On thursday night she took a turn for the worse and never woke back up.  We got a call at 6am Sat morning that we needed to get to Fargo (my parents were at my house) so we took off and were 15 minutes late getting there. :-(  I did NOT expect this!  I knew Grandma wasn't healthy...and I knew she would need to go to a nursing home WHEN she got outta the hospital...but I NEVER expected her to NOT get out of the hospital.  We are learning now as we receive some test results back that there was evidence of brain stem damage from the fall that she must have taken at some point between Tuesday morning and Wed morning when they found her in her apartment.  At least she is at peace...and with the rest of our family of angels...but I am really struggling right now with this.  This next week is gonna be a difficult one.

As for foster care license status....had my fire inspection last Friday...got a few things to "correct" and then we're set to go.  Nothing major...just some "old house" issues that aren't up to "code".

Well I am at work today trying to get a few things done to stay caught up as I will be out of the office for 2 1/2 days this week.

Hope all is well with everyone out there!

Harvest is in full swing

Well we are officially into sugar beet harvest.  It's been a crazy week.  65+ hours and I took Monday off for a family funeral.  Went on a few parts runs yesterday and finally got back home just before Midnight last night...been back at work this morning for just over an hour.  Start of a new week...let's hope it goes well.  I know I NEED a massage...my poor body can't handle these kinds of hours...but I know when I see the paycheck on the 15th...it will all be worth it!

Got a message from our local Social Services agency...they have my application for family foster care on hand and are sending out paperwork to my references.  Keeping my fingers crossed all will work out.  I really miss the kids!  And at least by the time they get around to doing a homestudy...beet harvest will be over and my hours will be more "normal".

Me and The "Loves of my Life"

This picture was taken at my mom and dad's on Labor Day weekend.  Missing 2 of my nephews...but oh well...4 of 6 together was ok with me.  I love these kiddos more than life itself.  My niece on my lap is named after me and is my god-daughter.  From Left to Right "Little Noodle" Age 11 1/2, "Messer" Age 3, "Princess" Age 3 & 11 months (yes the girls are 10 1/2 months apart!) and "Daws" Age 6.  "Messer" "Princess" and "Daws" are siblings.  "Little Noodle" is an only child.  He is also my god-son and will ALWAYS be spoiled rotten by me!  I feel bad...and I don't really have a "favorite" but he has always held an extra special place in my heart.

Update

Went out on my first blind date last week. Nice guy...even went on a 2nd date this past Sat night...went dancing to Johnny Holm (anyone heard of him??) Had a blast!!! What a fun time out with a bunch of friends just having fun with no pressures! Life is starting to look up. Eating and other behaviors are coming along good.

Almost fell on the slick dance floor (why can't people set their beer down BEFORE they go out on the floor????) but "George" caught me from actually falling...but still ended up with a displaced rib and hip outta wack...today I HURT! :-(

Not much else to talk about...work is getting busier with harvest...I did check into getting licensed as a foster parent here in my new county...application has been sent in...we'll see what happens.

I'm still alive

It's been quite a time the last couple of weeks but I wanted to check and say I was still out here...Eating and self-injury behaviors are out of control so still actively working on getting back on track. It's just really hard right now.

Just when I think my life is soooo good...

Mr. "Perfect" really isn't so perfect for me...decided he doesn't want to be "tied down" all of a sudden and went his separate way...not moving to my town next week afterall. I know in the end..it's better this way and I'll be ok...but I am soooo done with it all. Thankfully IUI's didn't work...but now I've got a $1000 medical bill to pay again...guess it's a good thing they take payment plans.

Gonna take a few days to regroup...get my life figured out...get my eating disorder back on track (as it's gone WAY OUT OF CONTROL this week).

Thanks for "listening".