Well I'm not sure what to blog about....I just feel the need to write something. We got a call from our local agency today may have a 7yr placed with us in the near future. That's the oldest child we would have had since starting our foster care life about 1 1/2 yrs ago. We'll see what happens with him. We have until monday to make a decision cause it's not an emergency placement.

On a different note, does anybody out there do a scrapbook or anything to send home with kids when they leave your homes? I have done this for the kids we have had so far. I haven't given G her book yet. I'm waiting to see what happens with her adoption. I don't think her birth mom would want/appreciate it. L&L just got a few pages cause they were with us for such a short time. I also do a book for us to keep. In G's book, on the final page I put the lyrics to the song..."MY WISH" by Rascal Flatts. I heard this song the day G left us and cried immediately. It is sooo perfect and says exactly what we wish for her...and any other foster child that will come into our life.

"MY WISH" BY RASCAL FLATTS

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.
But more than anything,
Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big

ok -so did you cry at that one? every time I hear it I still get tears. It is just such a perfect song (in my opinion) for a child that has been thru what most foster care kids have. So let me know your thoughts....

News I'm not too sure what to do with...

Ok I just got a call from our local SS office. Our little girl foster daughter that is in the process of being adopted is not going as well as the adoptive family has hoped. The state is objecting to the adoption on many different grounds and I'm not sure how to feel about this. It has also been asked of us if we would be interested in having a relationship with G if/when the adoption goes thru. This is the hard one....do we want a relationship or not. Of course, my first instinct is to say YES!!! but will it be too hard? Afterall we've been thru? It would be like an "aunt/uncle" or special friends kind of relationship. I don't know what to do. What have your experiences with this been like? There is also the chance that our local SS office may be getting involved again too and they wanted to know if we would be willing to take her again if it came to that. That I did say yes to. This time, we know what we are getting into. There's so much more to this but it's time to head home from work so I'll finish more tomorrow....afterall - it's SURVIVOR night and I can't be late for that! :-)

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to one and all. Things are quiet in our house and we are getting a lot accomplished. I did check in with our social worker the other day and she wanted to know if we would be willing to take a 15yr old. I told her, Sorry! After all, I'm young. I'm not ready to deal with teenagers yet. Maybe 10 years from now. But not yet.

Hope everyone has a Happy day today and that you can spend it (or at least part of it) with someone you love.

Quiet Household

Well the kids have been gone for almost a week now. The nights are eery quiet around the house. I'm still feeling guilty or something. Thank you for letting me know it's normal! Hubby and I will enjoy some time together. As much as I want to be a mom full time - it really takes a toll on you to care for someone else's kids! I don't think our families realize how different it really is to be a foster parent vs a biological parent. Maybe some of you disagree too, but that's just how I feel. If a bio child acted like our little L did, who would you have to "blame" but yourself. With her, her bio mom was aiding in her behavior which was working against us. I know that someday I will be a forever mom to the right child and until that day comes, there will be many children that hopefully I can make a positive impact in their lives while they are in our home.